I usually dread Valentine’s Day if I am single. But this year, I am embracing it because I am sooooooo in love. I don’t know if I’ve been in love like this before, but this love has changed me, literally transformed me. Remove me from my comfort zone and took me to a place where only He could work with me. Took away my selfish ways and turned me into a giver (of fruitful things). He promised me he would never leave or forsake me. He promised never to hurt me. He promised to love me unconditionally never expecting anything in return. I am so overwhelmed that I can know and have an authentic love affair with someone who gave up so much for me. Yes I am enamored with His love and my heart is so pure to love unconditionally.
I was sitting in my room Sunday reading 1 Corinthians 2:32-35 (msg) and I just started writing and one of the statements that I wrote was, “While I am completely yours (unmarried), I want to take full advantage of being selfishly in love with you. Yes, I was in a space that was so heavy with God’s presence and I just started worshipping Him and telling Him how much I was in love with him.
Now, there is a distinct difference between loving someone and being in love with them. I thought I learned at an early age the difference, but I don’t think I had true understanding. When I thought I was in love it was love as the world sees it, but not the Godly kind of love. It wasn’t pure, certainly not holy, but the feeling felt so good I just new it was love. I was completely SIKED OUT. This love right here (St.Louis voice) I’m talking about is so PURE, so AUTHENTIC, so HOLY where God can reside and not feel uncomfortable. This love has no stands of depression, feelings of unworthiness, or making me lack self-esteem. It doesn’t hurt. It doesn’t make me want to die. This love makes me want to live, love harder, and run tell the world: I love me some HIM!!! My God, yes who is so amazing and has me head over heels in love. This kind of love is that good good, you know that fiyah! It’s Gods love and while I am unmarried I get to be selfish in a good way and love Him like He loves me.
Because I am in love, I thought it was appropriate to change the chorus of Dangerously in Love by Beyoncé to, “I am in love with you, you have set me free, I won’t do this thing called life without you here with me, because I’m selfishly in love with you. You keep loving me and I love you more and more each day I am here with you.”
If you don’t have a selfish love affair with God I encourage you to start and see how your life will never be the same.
Well, don’t just look it, but be it, because you are it!!!
I’m shining brighter as I love God more,